My lack of blogging in the last couple weeks (and months) isn’t only because I’ve been lacking enough time to do it. True, I’ve been busy, but I’ve never been too busy to write. Yet somewhere between September and now, my writing has definitely waned.
It’s got me thinking- where did my writing mojo go?
And the truth is, I’ve always written some of my favorite pieces around here when I was in a state of confusion, sadness, reminiscence or change. I’ve so rarely used my blog to write when I’m just happy, and if I do, I don’t feel nearly as inspired by myself as I’d like to. It’s weird, I know.
But it is ABSOLUTELY the truth. I’ll own up to it. In the last 6 months, I’ve been as close to happy as possible at this point in my life. Things have been going well. Sure, I’ve had bad days and things that go horribly wrong, but overall I’m at a place in my life where things feel right on track. This is where I should be. Stressing about school, dedicating an absurd amount of time to writing for CONFRONT Magazine (because I just love that magazine so freaking much, and because my love for writing about music has grown tenfold), reading too many books when I should be studying, and going out with friends when I get the chance.
I used to write about having writing anxiety- that is, not feeling up to writing about the things that I truly had on my mind for fear of being judged- and I must admit that’s something I’ve worked really hard at fixing in the last two years. But now, as I find myself in a more comfortable place in my life, I’ve stopped feeling that way, and I don’t think that’s necessarily a good thing. There are still things that I’m not writing about, and I should be writing about. I never want my writing (or my blog) to reflect only happy parts of my life, or even to sound like it’s all rainbows and sunshine over here, because that’s certainly not true.
My lack of writing has reminded me that I haven’t been challenging myself enough in something that I love to do so much it hurts. One of my good friends made a comment about my love of literature the other day. She said to me: “you’re so passionate about books, it’s almost frightening.” and I loved the accuracy of that, because sometimes I feel that way too. I want to feel that way about my writing. Even if others don’t necessarily see it, I want to see it. I want to live and breathe the things that I am most passionate about, to a point where it is almost frightening.
It’s time to start challenging myself in my writing again. I’ve been having so much fun getting into a comfort zone of words; editing them and writing them in music and in happy moments. I want to get out of my ‘writing comfort zone’ a little bit again. I want to feel a little anxious about it, because I think that’s when it makes the biggest difference.
From time to time I like writing myself little pep-talk reminder posts like this one. I’ve never been one to settle into life too comfortably, because that’s when I find myself getting bored. I’ve realized lately that this is just what’s been happening; I’ve been letting myself amble along a little bit too comfortably for my own good. Writing is as good a place as any to start changing that!
“I want to live and breathe the things that I am most passionate about, to a point where it is almost frightening.” I love that line so much. I think it’s a great way to look at life and living and our passions. To get so wrapped up in them, so involved that it is frightening to those around us.
Great post, friend. I hope to see mooooore writing from you soon! I find that my best writing comes when I’m at a point of turmoil so I definitely understand not having the mojo when things are going well. Not perfect, but well.
Thank you! I really hope to dedicate more time writing soon, too. I think I’ll find that I have more to write about than I’m willing to even admit, sometimes!
“My lack of writing has reminded me that I haven’t been challenging myself enough in something that I love to do so much it hurts.”
/Nod.
Heh. There’s so much I want to say about this post, but words aren’t my forte right now.
“I want to live and breathe the things that I am most passionate about, to a point where it is almost frightening.” And yeah, Stephany is on the ball on this one.
I so want to live my passion. I want to be consumed by it. I miss a life of love over a pay cheque.
I’m rambling. Great post, lady. Great. I hope you harness your passion again soon. Write, Lovely. Write, write, write!
Haha thank you, Kim! EXACTLY what I need/want to be doing- write write writing!
I look forward to reading more of your writing. I think it is always so important to be passionate about what you do.
Thank you! And I couldn’t agree more. So important to love what you do.
This post reminded me of this one: http://zenhabits.net/discomfort/
As much as I write about needing to get out of my comfort zone, that post just took it to a whole other level. One that I absolutely needed to read today, for various reasons. Thanks for the link, Linda
I slip into phases where I struggle to write meaningful posts, too. it’s tough because it seems like you need some sort of catalyst in life to give you something to write about – either something really good or really bad. I have so much to write on right now given all that I am goign through but this fall I had a hard time coming up with meaningful posts. Just keep at it – the words wil come back to you!!
Thanks Lisa! And that’s exactly it- you do need a catalyst to give you something to write about, it seems. I think that’s natural, I mean, the best music, books, art, etc, all come from those “catalyst” moments in life. It would just be pretty neat to be able to write without having to go through big life changes. Sometimes life is so ordinary, and that’s when I want to be able to dig a little deeper.
Everyone else has been too nice about this. Get your ass back on the keyboard. I’m ready for more of your stories. Just saying.
LOL thanks for telling me how it is, Elle
I can always count on you for the swift kick in the behind that I desperately need!
Well it’s great to hear that you’ve been so happy!
Good luck kicking it back into gear.
Love the Discomfort post – so very true! I look forward to having you in my reader a little more often
Life is very very hectic at the mo but I hope we can catch up soon I want to hear all about what’s been causing this happiness! 
Good luck!