So, I quietly took some time off blogging, and despite thinking about writing almost every other day, I just haven’t had the time to put any of my thoughts into cohesive sentences. The truth is that my current schedule is already so jam packed, most of my hobbies/personal life have been put on complete hold. I can’t remember the last time I had a real social outing that wasn’t somehow related to school, and I remember even less those hot summer days where I was just *wishing* I had something to do beyond reading and being lazy.
Oh, those were the days!
Since school has started, my life has been… A blur. Between running a magazine with one of my best friends (and finding out that she’s moving away to another city), managing a team of over 10 people and planning an entire year of events/parties, taking a full 4 class course load, and attempting to fit in 2-3 days of actual paying work in, I really haven’t had much time for anything else. I haven’t finished a book since the first week of classes, I haven’t been to a family dinner in just as long, in fact, there hasn’t been a single day that hasn’t revolved around work for the 18 or so hours that I am awake. Even when I go to sleep, I often find myself waking up in the middle of the night remembering more things I have to do, or more likely, unable to fall asleep in the first place because my brain is too busy listing all the things I didn’t manage to accomplish during the day.
It’s crazy because I’m doing all these things, and maybe a part of me is realizing that I may have stretched myself out very thinly this year. But then I think to myself “what would you do differently, if you could?” and the truth is, nothing. It’s only been 5 weeks since the crazy has begun, and it has been, by far, the best University experience in all my years there. It’s crazy, stressful, it fills me with anxiety, but it also makes me ridiculously proud of everything that I’m able to fit into my schedule. Once all of this is said & done, going into work 5 days a week is going to feel like a BREEZE. A weekend, you say?! As in, two whole days with nothing to worry about?? FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE? Well, we’ll see about that.
I don’t think I’ve ever gone this long without blogging in my life, and it’s honestly really difficult to come to terms with. I need to start planning my time better and giving myself a few hours of guilt-free time to myself to read and/or blog and/or watch TV and/or sleep. I miss going to concerts, laying in the sun reading (and being a little bit bored, I’ll admit!), I miss traveling, drinking a cup of coffee & reading blogs for an entire morning… I miss all the things that I’ve always loved most about my routine, the things that have gotten thrown overboard from this crazy train of life I’m on (there’s a metaphor for you!)
Life is currently rewarding in a whole new kind of way. Sure, I’m still about the small pleasures. Pumpkin spice lattes on Monday afternoons before class, spending an extra hour with my best girl at school talking through our daily stress, squeezing in some writing about music here & there… I still have *things* that I *love*. But now I also get to wake up every day knowing that my Casa Cares team is making a difference in the community. We’ve raised almost 3 000$ in fundraising activities for the Canadian Breast Cancer Foundation, we raised just over 2000$ last weekend to help send students to Uganda to work on community development projects, and we’re currently working on what will be the biggest campaign for ‘Movember’ at our University. I could literally spend all day- all my energy- putting these events together, because it is just THAT beautiful to see that it makes a difference to someone.
I think the most exciting bit of news worth sharing, maybe above all else, is that I also found out I’m going to be an auntie again! My sister-in-law is just over 3 months pregnant now, which means next summer is going to be AWESOME. As if I didn’t know this already, life has a funny way of changing everything on you in the blink of an eye. I would have never believed that I would end in this exact moment, even just one year ago from today. I can’t even begin to imagine what the next 365 days are going to hold, but I’m so excited. For me, for my family, and for my friends (even the ones that are picking up and moving 6 hours away from me. Sob!)
Okay, enough rambling for now. I think it’s time to make MORE time for blogging, yes?