I’m here, I promise!

So, I quietly took some time off blogging, and despite thinking about writing almost every other day, I just haven’t had the time to put any of my thoughts into cohesive sentences. The truth is that my current schedule is already so jam packed, most of my hobbies/personal life have been put on complete hold. I can’t remember the last time I had a real social outing that wasn’t somehow related to school, and I remember even less those hot summer days where I was just *wishing* I had something to do beyond reading and being lazy.

Oh, those were the days!

Since school has started, my life has been… A blur. Between running a magazine with one of  my best friends (and finding out that she’s moving away to another city), managing a team of over 10 people and planning an entire year of events/parties, taking a full 4 class course load, and attempting to fit in 2-3 days of actual paying work in, I really haven’t had much time for anything else. I haven’t finished a book since the first week of classes, I haven’t been to a family dinner in just as long, in fact, there hasn’t been a single day that hasn’t revolved around work for the 18 or so hours that I am awake. Even when I go to sleep, I often find myself waking up in the middle of the night remembering more things I have to do, or more likely, unable to fall asleep in the first place because my brain is too busy listing all the things I didn’t manage to accomplish during the day.

studying

It’s crazy because I’m doing all these things, and maybe a part of me is realizing that I may have stretched myself out very thinly this year. But then I think to myself “what would you do differently, if you could?” and the truth is, nothing. It’s only been 5 weeks since the crazy has begun, and it has been, by far, the best University experience in all my years there. It’s crazy, stressful, it fills me with anxiety, but it also makes me ridiculously proud of everything that I’m able to fit into my schedule. Once all of this is said & done, going into work 5 days a week is going to feel like a BREEZE. A weekend, you say?! As in, two whole days with nothing to worry about?? FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE? Well, we’ll see about that.

I don’t think I’ve ever gone this long without blogging in my life, and it’s honestly really difficult to come to terms with. I need to start planning my time better and giving myself a few hours of guilt-free time to myself to read and/or blog and/or watch TV and/or sleep. I miss going to concerts, laying in the sun reading (and being a little bit bored, I’ll admit!), I miss traveling, drinking a cup of coffee & reading blogs for an entire morning… I miss all the things that I’ve always loved most about my routine, the things that have gotten thrown overboard from this crazy train of life I’m on (there’s a metaphor for you!)

tomodellI did get to interview the very talented singer/songwriter/pianist Tom Odell last week! 

Life is currently rewarding in a whole new kind of way. Sure, I’m still about the small pleasures. Pumpkin spice lattes on Monday afternoons before class, spending an extra hour with my best girl at school talking through our daily stress, squeezing in some writing about music here & there… I still have *things* that I *love*. But now I also get to wake up every day knowing that my Casa Cares team is making a difference in the community. We’ve raised almost 3 000$ in fundraising activities for the Canadian Breast Cancer Foundation, we raised just over 2000$ last weekend to help send students to Uganda to work on community development projects, and we’re currently working on what will be the biggest campaign for ‘Movember’ at our University. I could literally spend all day- all my energy- putting these events together, because it is just THAT beautiful to see that it makes a difference to someone.

Casa Cares (135 of 293)All-day soccer tournament benefiting community workers in Gulu, Uganda

casacareschaptersThe team after one of our fundraisers for the Canadian Breast Cancer Foundation

I think the most exciting bit of news worth sharing, maybe above all else, is that I also found out I’m going to be an auntie again! My sister-in-law is just over 3 months pregnant now, which means next summer is going to be AWESOME. As if I didn’t know this already, life has a funny way of changing everything on you in the blink of an eye. I would have never believed that I would end in this exact moment, even just one year ago from today. I can’t even begin to imagine what the next 365 days are going to hold, but I’m so excited. For me, for my family, and for my friends (even the ones that are picking up and moving 6 hours away from me. Sob!)

auntieBaby!!! 

Okay, enough rambling for now. I think it’s time to make MORE time for blogging, yes?

Comments

  1. When I look back on college, it was the semesters like what you’re describing which gave me the best memories :) even though a lot of my posts from that time are breathless “look how much I have to do, this is impossible and crazy” in nature, they are some of my favorite to go back and read! Also, tip: put a notepad by your bed and when you wake up with your mind racing with things to do, write them down. This saved me more than once :)

  2. Oh, my goodness, girl, when I started my full-time job after college, it was SUCH an easy transition! Going from working as a preschool teacher (which is CRAZY in and of itself!) to classes to my internship to doing homework to interviewing… sigh. Then, I got a job after college and it’s just, like, working 9-5 and THE REST OF MY TIME IS MINE. It’s awesome. This time of your life is CRAZY (and we STILL HAVEN’T SKYPED!!!) but as long as you know you want to be this crazy and are enjoying it, that’s all that matters. Live it up!

    Also, YAY BABIES and please try to carve out time for yourself in all this. You don’t want to wear yourself out too quickly!

  3. Dang girl, you are so busy these days! I hope you can find a way to carve out some guilt-free Melissa time as that is so important when you are so spread thin, even if you are doing things you enjoy! You aren’t missing much in my life – just lots of travel and checking off the months until my one year commitment is up and I can start looking for a new job.

    Good luck keeping up with everything and not getting too spread thin!!

  4. I totally agree with a five day a week job being so much easier than University. Adults kept telling me “Just wait until you have a job and you’re in the real world…” As a warning but once I got there I was like yeah! Evenings and weekends are mine! All your hard work will be so worth it.
    Congrats on the news that you will have another little one to hang out with. So exciting for you and your family :)
    Also I love how you did the French thing of putting the $ after the number! :D

  5. That’s so great you’re going to be an auntie again! Congratulations! Honestly, I don’t know how you do all that you do. You have got to be the closest thing to superwoman as a woman can get, lol. It’s amazing what all you can fit into your schedule and actually accomplish. I am the complete opposite! I’m actually trying to work myself back into goals and tasks and having things to do. I have about a kajillion Tumblr accounts I’ve started in the last few weeks, such as a place to record favorite quotes, a place to record cryptic sentences from articles I read (inspired by @Horse_ebooks), a place to post favorite quotes from books I’m reading that I then review on YouTube, a place to just reblog interesting things already on Tumblr, a place to record favorite quotes from blog posts I read, and finally, a Tumblr I just started to keep track of writing projects–something to get me motivated to write every day. I am also working on guest posts and learning HTML/CSS, and just got an idea for an short ebook today that I’d really like to pursue. It’s nuts. All of sudden, I just turned into a really ambitious person with really ambitious goals, and I have no idea where she came from. Lol. But I’m glad for it, because before I was in a bad place and now I feel like I’m starting to wake up from the nightmare that’s been my first year out of college. Don’t lose that gusto! :)

  6. Oh yes, I definitely remember balancing 50 million things and jobs of all types when I was in University. It’s crazy but fun and you just might miss it one day (even if that’s hard to believe right now). I’ve also felt really behind on blogging lately as I’ve been SUPER busy at work lately and have absolutely zero time to read blogs while at work (I used to read them on my lunch – now I’m like what lunch hour?) and I have tons of work events that spill into my evenings and weekends. Usually after being go go go all day I just want to veg on the couch in the evenings which means no real blogging. But we’ll both get back into it eventually I’m sure! PS: congrats on being an auntie again! Yay!

  7. I am in awe of how you’re doing it all, but if you’re single and able to do it and thrive on it, I say – you go gurl! I miss your posts when you don’t do them but don’t like that you feel guilt about it. Enjoy every minute but I hope that you are finding moments in every day to take care of yourself.

  8. I know how you feel with regards to busy schedules, mine is crazy atm! But you do have to make sure you make time for yourself too or you’ll burn yourself out :) Glad to see you back though! xxx PS. my boyfriend went to Uni with Tom and they lived together for a year, he’s lovely x

  9. I know exactly how you feel. When I was in college and studying two majors and working two jobs and serving as president of my sorority and blah blah blah, I remember thinking, “At least I’ll never be this busy again.” And it was true! … Until I took a job that involved traveling 28 days per month and working 90-hour weeks on average! So you never know where life will take you lol. Happily I’m back in the normal five-day-a-week mode now. :) Welcome back to the bloggy world!

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